A Day In The Field and New Side Note!

Man was it a long field day today!

I didn’t wake up too insanely early like yesterday, but I was up at the shock of my roommates alarm at 6.30am.  I got ready with all my gear this morning and had a warm breakfast, thinking it was as chilly as it was yesterday. 

Cinnamon Apple Raisin Peanut Butter Oats.

• 1/3C quick oats
• diced rome apple
• 1.5T natural pb
• some raisins
• tons of cinnamon!

Too bad all it did was make me sweat.  Hah!

[[Side note: Seeing as how I’ve been pretty honest and open about my eating disorder lately with the Ask Me Anything! segment, I thought that whenever something of that nature might occur I would bring it up.  I normally keep these things to myself and am able to deal with them well, but knowing that sharing how I get through these tough times might help some of my readers, I feel compelled to show my struggles.

So the side note for today: Overcoming Fear Foods.  When I first developed my ED I had a HUGE LIST of foods that I eliminated from my diet.  Over the years I have been able to incorporate the majority of them back into my life, but some of them are still on the mend.  I have surprised myself with this one, finally accepting that the issue was still there, but I still have a problem with PEANUT BUTTER.

I know you see me eat it every single day in something I have, but never do I ever go over two tablespoons throughout the day, or more than one at a time.  This might seem absurd to some, but my mind just has it set that I can’t have more than those amounts, and it has to be ALL NATURAL.  No partially hydrogenated oils for this gal. 

Over the past week or so I have been trying to figure out ways to keep my tummy satisfied through the long work morning I have and after seeing the effects that Evan and Heather have had with their “fat” incorporations, I decided to give it a shot with really, the only pretty fatty thing I add to my diet: peanut butter. (I’ll discuss this more later, but FOODS HIGH IN FAT are still a huge fear food of mine) 

At first I was terrified: over a tablespoon of PB in my oats?  Or in my yogurt?  Can I do this?  I was afraid that even though the others were having success with their “fat” food experiences, I didn’t think it would work for me.  It was terrifying to think that I might consume this extra “fat”, not feel any more satisfied than normal, and therefore have consumed an extra amount of calories I could have used on something else and need to regulate everything thereafter.

But it seems to me, the terror from that fear only occurred before trying it…and now, only just over a week later and first trying it, I’m totally fine with having that extra 1/2T in my oats.  Granted it’s only a half and not a full extra tablespoon…but hey, even now, almost 8 years after developing my ED, I still take baby steps and work on recovery.  I’m doing what I know will work for me, and stick in the long run.

P.S. Does this kind of side not interest you?  Would you want me to keep doing them?  I’d like to know!]]

We had a long drive to the boat dock and a lot of driving after that to get to where we needed.  Controlled burns were occurring in the Everglades today, just north of where we needed to go…so everything was round about.  After 3 hrs of driving and some other maintenance, we finally stopped for lunch:

Laughing cow, spicy hummus, tomato, cucumber and leaf lettuce sandwich

two organic clementines

3 Super Charge Me Cookies

Our job today was to check out tree islands where we’ll be setting up decoys to see where birds would nest!

We did get to see the flames and burning they were doing and my coworker got some photos, so I’ll show you those tomorrow!  After getting back I had two mini pink lady apples and my fourth super charge me cookie.  Those cookies are seriously the best fuel!  They hold me over so well!

I came home and wanted to run, but after tomorrow knew that would be a bad idea, so I settled on doing my new Core Fusions Body Sculpt DVD I got this weekend.  OMG that video was hard!  I was shaking all over!  Of course it was more difficult that it needed to be since I did all those planks and abs yesterday!  Yikes!  So worth it though!  I love the strength I’m gaining!!!  I’M SO EXCITED!  Too bad I really despise doing strength training.  haha!

After cleaning up I made a very simple and quick dinner because I was starving:

• veggie burger
• white rice
• onions
• mushrooms
• bell pepper
• carrots
• cucumbers
• spinach
• salsa

I sautéed all the veggies except the cucumber in some taco seasoning, topped it over spinach and put some salsa on top.  Now that I look at it, it’s pretty boring.  Haha.

I just had a nice cinnamon h2h and semi-sweet chocolate chips dessert and am heading to bed…I have an even longer field day tomorrow samples minnows and plants out near burn areas!  Eep!