GIRL

[[Side Note: GIRL

It was so hot today all I could wish for was a breeze…

Or not when I’m trying to wear a dress voluntarily for the first time in AGES:

American Eagle Floral Print Dress anyone? 

If you haven’t been able to tell, I’ve been trying to push my own buttons the past few weekends to step outside my box, to help myself get over the fear of always failing and being perfect all the time.  I mean, mountain biking and rafting?  Art Festival? 4th of July 5k fun run?  As simple as they may simple, they’re huge steps for me.

Here’s another one: BEING A GIRL.

Ok, maybe I should say…GIRLY GIRL?  That’s more like it, as I have never really been one…err, all my life.  It was not often you would find me in a dress, or a skirt, or even a nice blouse, even when I went out with friends.  So, in an effort to rekindle, or I guess spark the flame, I bought this a little over a week ago.  Truthfully, when I tried it on in the store and loved it.  It looked good and felt comfortable so I bought it, along with another one, without hesitation.

Yet when I put it on this morning, it looked nowhere near as nice as I had originally thought.  I stood there in front of the mirror, turning circles getting ready to take it off for a pair of shorts and shirt to go out to town and get my shopping (at Target and TJ’s) done.  But I knew by taking it off I would only be taking a step back instead of steps forward. 

Truthfully, it was very hard to do.  I was paranoid about how I looked in the dress the whole time I was walking around in every store.  But I just kept telling myself, “These are beautiful colors.  This is a wonderful design.  You are working hard and stepping forward. DO NOT BE AFRAID.”

As soon as I got home I did take it off for a pair of shorts and a new shirt I got, but even though I didn’t keep it on long after returning, I wore it out.  I had actually planned on wearing one of the dresses to the family reunion I was supposed to attend today and instead used it for this, which I think might have been better with the anguish it was causing just from being around strangers to being around family.  We’ll see when I wear the other one…or the skirt I bought via the internet (I never buy clothes w/o trying them on, EVER).  Someday soon hopefully!

Oh yeah, and I wanted to mention that I went to the movies yesterday to see Despicable Me, ALONE.  I have done this many times in the past and it has never bothered me.  I mean, it’s a dark theater, no one knows who I am and will never know if I walked in to meet someone or someone came in after to meet me.  Besides, the ticket/workers don’t care.  They’re just bored to tears working anyhow.  I’ll be doing it again in a few weeks when Charlie St. Cloud comes out…I have new boy crush…

But as many of you responded to my tweet about being afraid to do this, have no fear!  It’s pretty awesome that you can sit wherever you want and don’t have someone whispering in your ear the entire movie…cause we all have friends like that. LOL. So do it!  I promise it’s a freeing experience! ]]

Anyhow, somehow I deleted my eats from earlier in the day but really, they’re nothing compared to my dinner.  And dessert.

I’m preparing a guest post for the soon to be Mrs. SaladGirl on How To Roll Your Own Sushi so I’ll let you know when that’s out so you can check it out!  I don’t want to ruin the post for her so I’m just going to show you the results.

Nom freak’n nom.

Not a lot of variety for the inside, but it was all I really had on hand…as I knew I was missing out on the Japanese Fest my family was at for the reunion…so I couldn’t miss out.

Brown rice, carrots, cucumber, and avocado…Organic Edamame on the side…

And of course a bowl of fruit at the end.  I can’t ever have a meal without fruit.  Fruit runs in my blood.

Then I ate some chocolate.  Err, chocolate covered cranberries and edamame.  And some cashews. 

Damned that mindless snacking.  It’s alright, I have a 9 miler scheduled for tomorrow!  Whoohoo for 1/2 Marathon Training!