As I've had some time to think this week, lots of stuff has been running through my head.
I've been thinking about running, whether I should continue to run off this half marathon and keep going to a full marathon...but there is the effects of my ED that still plague my mind and could potentially ruin the training, experience, support and my health.
Then there was the idea of, why does every running fundraiser have to do with diseases (not that thats bad and i dont support them, but) and none about the environment? How can I change this and do a run for the birds?
I keep talking about all these bird things I'm going to do and never get around to them. How can I love something so much but can't get my lazy butt up off the couch on a day off to do something to actually save them instead of just mitigating for them?
I really need to dig down and find out what's really bothering me; really work on why I believe that everyone bases their opinions of me solely on the way I look. I really need to work on my emotional eating and finding peace with myself. I'm on a mission to fall in love with myself. Does that sound selfish?
There are little things I want to work on until the end of this month. I just want to see if I can keep my word, and push boundaries instead of staying in my safe zone. What are they?
1. Do 5 push ups a day. Work up to 10 by the end of the month, even if that 10 is on the 31st of September.
2. No more cereal. I want to try and have more sustainable snacks instead of sticking with the cereal to sustain me (though know full well it won't; arg) for snacks in the afternoon. I need to give my body what it really needs to work at full capacity and 100%.
Do you have any goals you're working on? What are you doing to accomplish them? If you have none, what would you like to work on next month? Who says we have to wait for new years resolutions to have goals, right? ]]
I'm still in jury duty and really haven't been wanting to take my camera into the court house so you've only got a few food pictures from me. Don't worry, it's nothing exciting, otherwise I'd tell you. Well, other than the Avocado Cilantro Hummus my mom picked up and I can't stop putting on my sandwiches!
But as far as breakfast goes, it's quick when I get up and head out the door to do my civil duty. I'm taking advantage of being able to sleep in...because I'm also taking advantage of being able to stay up late. Oh the life of a field worker.
And being at home means lots of food variety...I mean, I can't find packages of raspberries where I live for 4 for $5!!! You know I'm taking advantage of it, with the banana, USVAB and Kashi Honey Sunshine.
I've been going on slow and steady runs yesterday and today after my race on Sunday and geez, it's hard! How did I go from running 13.1 miles so well to barely making it through 3-4 miles!? I kid, I know I'm still recovering, and simply tired. That's why I'm taking it slow.
But what is better on a chilly night than something warm like homemade curry? Ok, not so homemade but with the help of TJ's it comes pretty close.
I've been eating this potato, squash, broccoli curry for the past two nights, and eating it in two different ways. Night one? Curry, Japanese sticky rice and extra spinach. Night two? Potatoes, few pieces of squash and broccoli topped with two scrambled eggs. The curry was awesssssome with the eggs. I can't wait to do it again!!! Probably not normal for how Indian curries are eaten but hey, since when have I ever been normal?
And to end on a good note, I got some race photos today. I just might buy a few...for my birthday. Oh wait, I bought that plane ticket and race registration for my birthday...we'll see. ;)
Hopefully jury duty will be over tomorrow so I can go home to my kitty! My friend says she's lonely...I feel horrible. I'm a bad fur mom, leaving for a week. :(
16 comments:
I like your race photos. They look really good! :)
Wow those photos look GREAT! Um, I think you should buy some because it seems to me that this race was important.. more than just any other old race. You ROCKED it!
And I love your idea to "fall in love with yourself.." love it!
love yourself. you deserve it. I say that to myself a LOT. Just to remind myself I'm WORTH good health and I'm WORTH my own love. Maybe you can write 2 things you love about yourself at the end of each post till your birthday? And btw I am finally gonna be near a TJ when i visit glenn next week so I guess I'll be getting that curry sauce! PS. you look STRONG in those photos. If you decide to do the full do it cause you wanna rock it not cause you wanna lose weight from training!
I love what you said about falling in love with yourself - do it! You are incredible and deserve love from everyone in your life, primarily yourself. And if you ever find a "run for the birds", I'll run it with you! Or better yet, we should start our own race. <3
You should always buy a race photo. Plus yours are really good.
Your race photos look great! You should buy one since you rocked out and a set a new PR =) I just checked the photos from the Disneyland Half and I look horrible. I actually look really miserable in one of them. So embarrassing!
and no, it's not selfish at all to love yourself. embrace it!
wow you really did get some good photos, awesome!!
honestly I'm working on not feeling so damn lonely. yup, ii have been battling wit hposting about it for days and I probably will in the end...but some of that feeling lonely is coming from other things so yeah I'm working on that too.
maybe you should stay focused on further improving your half instead of trying to add in the stress of a full?
It is my honest and true belief that we all have to be selfish at SOME POINT in order to become who we truly are. Falling in love with yourself is the first step to getting free of the past and creating a wonderful new future that will benefit both you and others around you.
Love you!! :)
Your race photos look awesome!
I have a pushup goal too! My housemates and I started doing as many pushups as we can, every night, a few weeks ago! We're all getting better! I started off doing ten pushups with bad form, and last night I did 15 with good form! So awesome.
I love your race photos!! You look like a strong, confident woman. If you can do it financially, PLEASE order the third picture. I am sure that you will love having it!! :)
I am actually working on falling in love with myself too. I think it's a great goal -- it was a major realization I had today in therapy. I have to love me no matter what. Nothing comes before self-love, especially not my body: I don't need a perfect body to love myself. I deserve to love me as I am. So happy that you're realizing this too! After so many years of body hatred and weight obsession, it is hard to turn around and just say, "it doesn't matter." But it doesn't.
Happy weekend girl!
Your race photos are great! You look strong in all of them, congratulations! (And yeah, you do have some awesomely strong quads.)
I'm working on push-ups right now too! I thought that I couldn't do any, and it took a week or so for my body to get used to the "idea" of the motion. However, I think you make gains in strength really fast, especially if you were like I was and didn't do ANY before. I probably have bad form, but I'm working on it. I might do the "100 pushups" program!
GREAT photos!! I'm working on push ups myself. Since I've been back at the 30 Day Shred my goal is to be able to do 5 *real* push ups...not the girly ones...by the time we finish the 30 days. I've always considered by upper body weak but never did anything about it. Now that I'm in my mid 30's I don't want to get bat wings so it's high time to switch it up!
can't believe i haven't tried that tj's curry yet. it looks terrific - i'm such a fan of their ready-sauces.
The photos look great! Buy one! :)
great post, great message, and great photos! love yourself for all you do, for all you are. be proud, bc you rock!
this is a great reminder to myself, and may in fact post-it somewhere to read each day. along with self-love, i have a goal of getting stronger, i.e. devoting more to the weights rather than cardio...
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