Eggs

[[Side Notes: No Longer Afraid

At one point in my life, I had a laundry list of foods that I was not allowed to eat.  From there, it went from “You’re not allowed to eat” to “Be afraid to eat these” to “I am afraid to eat these.”

I’ve talked about some fear foods in the past, including pasta, peanut butter, potatoes, oils, butter, chocolate, and one I’ve yet to mention…eggs.  

I was so afraid to eat these.  And if I did, they were egg whites.  Something about the yolks and how it was deemed horrible for your cholesterol made me deathly terrified to eat them. 

All it took was one day.  One day of eating one, scrambled just like my dad used to make them when I was a kid.  Yolks and all.  Then because I was still afraid to eat more than one at a time, more than once a week, I would eat one again and add an extra white.  Then I moved to eating a whole one with two whites.

And just to prove to myself how much better I’m getting, I eat two now.  Two yolks was like a sin back in the day…now?  Oh, it’s normal.  I eat that stuff for lunch.  Ok, today it was dinner though.

Did I mention the cheese?  And potatoes?  OMG this would have been a nightmare to eat even three years ago.  Hell, a simple one year ago.  Yep…just a year ago I would not have been able to eat this comfortably and without anxiety. 

Ohhhh…chow time. 

I.am.not.afraid.  ]]

I woke up in a funk this morning.  I was hungry, but didn’t want to eat.  I knew I had to eat, but didn’t know what to eat.  I thought I wanted a smoothie, but it was 38*F outside.  So I settled on a bowl of cereal with a banana, blueberries and almond breeze.  Camera ate my picture; I think it wanted breakfast more than I did.

Of course cereal did nothing for the hunger that was there, and a shy 2.5 hours later I was munching on a Cashew Larabar…too bad I want the new flavors.  I got a bunch of mini ones at the AZ RnR Expo but have yet to break into them…I want big versions.  Boo WF being over 100 miles away…even then, I have the same opinion Summer has about the prices there…hehe.

I also ate a small apple with it.  I was so bored with it.

Then I was heading out to another area and came upon this sight…and it made me feel so sad inside.  It breaks my heart seeing the physical world torn apart, no matter what the reason, even if it is put in new types of energy.  All I can think of is the animals and their homes with their babies and food they’ve hunkered down for winter…how long those plants have been there, trying to grow and spread their seeds to produce new life…I really can’t describe the feelings.

I guess it makes me feel helpless since I used to do actual work saving animals…I miss holding the birds.

Ok, pity party over for my environmental heart.  Larabar digested and it was time for lunch.  Mom also bought me some Sourdough Vegetable Bread, seriously one of my favorites, so of course it went in my lunch.  Just a veggie sandwich, but I could have simply eaten the bread by itself.  It’s that yummy.

Along with a home grown orange from a friend and a blueberry oatmeal bar.

I went to the gym because after a day of sitting in the car I needed to get my blood rollin!  I went to the gym and because my quad is giving me some grief, I stuck to non-quad strenuous activities like walking for 1.5 miles on the treadmill then 1 mile on the elliptical, and arms and abs strength training as soon as I got home.

Then there was dinner…found at the top of the post.  Oh how yummy it was…eggs, cheese, potatoes and all.

And because no night goes without dessert, of course there is a piece of boysenberry bread with chocolate chips.

And a bowl of TJ’s Honey O’s.  I’m giving my body what it wants…someone’s mind is going through a revelation of sorts right now…more to come later.