What a field day! It went from calm, to windy, to hella windy, to omg I’m going to get blown off the ridge, to light rain with wind, to rain with wind, to rain with wind that made my face hurt. I stuck through all the surveys though…well, except that last 20 minutes of the second because I was so wet (in jeans mind you and they’re each 2 hrs long) that I felt like I’d pee’d in my pants. Yeah, awesome for the hour plus drive home. But who’s complaining? Not me! I made myself have fun out of it!
For instance…Just pretend like you’re a spy on the top of that rock with your binos looking out for something important (in my case an endangered species, but that’s besides the point…).
Anyhow…I’m in a bit of a mood right now. A good one if you can’t tell. Such a great feeling, and one that hasn’t happened often as of late!
So, this morning was EARLY and with the time change, getting up in pitch black was not too fun…but I had breakfast set and waiting for me!
Have you ever had Goji Berries? I got them from iHerb when I did my giveaway and have been snacking on them on the side (like when I’m cooking) but decided to add them to my oats to let them plump up a bit and become easier to chew. So delicious. Definitely a good add in when I don’t want to use a jelly or spread on my oats! Alas, knowing I had a long morning I bumped up the amount of oats and pb to keep me satisfied for hours. And boy did it do it’s job!
5 hours later my belly was grumbling, even over the sound of the wind. But really ,it was nothing exciting other than a pb and banana pita and a pear that I randomly threw in my lunch bag. The scenery is much nicer to look at anyhow.
The the rain and crazy wind came and tossed me around…but I tried to focus on the scenery…I never get sick of this!
Spring is coming! Pretty blue flowers! They kept me company as I noshed on a Banana Walnut Raisin Muffin and a Jazz Apple.
Wet and tired, I finally got to head home…
And who doesn’t love a green mountain? The picture does it no justice; it’s crazy green!
I got home and planned on running immediately but was so hungry and tired I decided to wait. I snacked on a big bowl of cheerios with almond milk, then totally passed out on the couch without knowing it! Totally messed up my evening!
I woke up hungry (how did that happen?) so I grabbed a handful of Dark Chocolate Peanut M&M’s before shooting off to the gym for a speed workout! I felt so great while I was running! I downloaded a new song (see Side Note for details) that totally had me pumped. I warmed up with a 1/2 mile at 6.0 then revved up for a mile at 6.8, then 3/4 of a mile at 7.0-7.3 and another mile at 6.8 with the last 1/2 mile from 7.2-8.0! I cooled down with a 1/2 mile at 6.0 and walked another half mile before guzzing enough water to sink a ship! Seriously I sweat way too much.
By the time I got home and cleaned up (I feel like I say that exact line after every workout I write about…hrm…) I was famished! It had been well, a few to many hours since I’d eaten! I quickly fixed a protein filled dinner including a product I got at the National Products Expo last weekend: Evol Mini Veggie Burrito.
Even though it has black beans for protein, I needed more after that speed workout so I topped it with some extra chickpeas and salsa to round it out!
I snacked on some TJ’s Wheat Crisps after that because I was still hungry, but was probably just thirsty…alas…time for bed!
I’m pooped!
[[Side Notes: “Who Says”
In an episode of musical Jr. High flashbacks last night with Katherine I was downloading KCi & JoJo’s All My Life when I came across this song climbing up the top 40 Hit List. And yes, I’m 25 and listening to a Disney Channel artist but hey, I love her and the beat of her music! Besides, this song is just the kind of thing I need right now!
Who Says By Selena Gomez
Wouldn't wanna be anybody else, hey
You made me insecure to me I wasn't good enough
But who are you to judge when you're a diamond in the rough
I'm sure you got somethings you'd like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me I wouldn't wanna be anybody else
(La na na na na na na)
I'm no beauty queen I'm just beautiful me
(La na na na na na na)
You've got every right to a beautiful life
Come on
Chorus:
Who says who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty who says your not beautiful who says
It's such a funny thing, how nothings funny when it's you
You tell me whatcha you mean, but then keep whiting out the truth
It's like a work of art, that never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars won't let you touch the sky
(La na na na na na na)
I'm no beauty queen I'm just beautiful me
You've got every right to a beautiful life
Come on
Chorus:
Who says who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty who says you're not beautiful who says
Who says you're not star potential, who says you're not presidential
Who says you can't be in movies, listen to me listen to me
Who says you don't past the test, who says you can't be the best
Who said who said would you tell me who said that, yeah
Who said
Chorus:
Who says who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty who says you're not beautiful who says
Who says who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty who says you're not beautiful
Who says
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I didn’t really listen to the song until this morning when I was driving out in the field and my radio wouldn’t work, but wow. It totally hit a cord with me and I have the whole thing memorized now. As much as the song might be suggesting that others might be telling someone this, I thought about it directed at myself and you know “Who Says” these things to me?
ME
I am my own worst enemy, critic and hater. But it made me think about why I say these things to myself? What makes me think that I’m not beautiful? That I’m not pretty? That I’m not worth it?
I simply have no answer. I know that in reality I can’t be perfect, like I have always sought out to be, but that’s really not such a horrible thing. I will never get the perfect body that I want no matter how hard I try because I’m not built for it. Instead I will have the curves and thighs that carry me through the runs that I do. I will never hit a 5.30 mile because I’m not trained for it anywhere in the near future (I was kinda close in HS: 6:03!) but as long as I try hard at the miles that I do, they will suffice. I will never finish half the things that I wish I could throughout my life, but you know what?
There is the other half that I have accomplished. Like finding my dream job. And creating bonds with great people. And traveling to foreign places. And trying new and fun foods/recipes.
What more could I ask for, right?
What do you think of the song? Are you your own worst enemy? How do you talk your way around it? ]]
12 comments:
Ah, I can relate to this entry. I sometimes feel like no matter what I achieve it will never be enough which is totally not true. I have a hard time sometimes looking objectively at my achievements and not comparing them to, say, my classmates.
Also, love the JoJo and K-Ci shout out. totally listened to it several times last night :)
Goji berries are awesome.
You can be so hard on yourself and then suddenly something comes along - a song, something you read, a comment by a friend - and it helps put it all in perspective. I try to hold on to these revelations as long as possible - helps to keep me grounded when my mind starts spinning. Thanks for sharing the song - I'll have to check it out!
i love that SONG!!! i used to be my WORST critic but ive learned o accept other bodies and the way woman are truly made! i literally JUST did a post on body image on my blog today!
We are totally on the same wavelength! I'm not familiar with that song, but I can definitely relate to the lyrics the same way you do.
Beautiful post-
ive never had goji berries but want to try!
Some people believe women with curves HAVE perfect bodies, not the other way around. If you looked at it that way, it might be helpful!
We are lucky in so many ways. Despite the anxiety the Japanese earthquake has brought, it reminds me once again how much I have to be grateful for. Do I really need to worry about the fact that I ate Taco Bell last night? Or that I need a new couch? Or that I hate all of my clothes? The answer is a resounding NO in the grand scheme of things. It's all about context.
Just stumbled on your site and can totally relate...to many parts of your post!
1) I totally can get hooked on teeny bopper songs like that (though I haven't heard that one, I'll have to look it up now!) to help with my runs. They usually have a good beat and a cheesy, but uplifting message!
2) I have been working on a post about the same topic of how we view ourselves because it has been on my mind big time lately. My husband has such great confidence and I am so jealous of it sometimes because women can be sooo much harder on themselves...for no reason! Now that I have a daughter, I want to be a model for her of positive self-talk instead of the negative.
Great post!
Amy
Good post. :) Also, those pictures are gorgeous. I want to see those colors in person!
I know there was a serious nature to this post...but THEY MAKE DARK CHOCOLATE PEANUT M&MS??
Very true that I am my own worst enemy. I actually don't know if I have ever heard that song before but I'm going to look it up now. Thank you for always being so honest - I always feel like I could have written a lot of what you say. :o) Let's keep each other motivated to get over the obstacles that we ourselves put in front of us! We can do it!
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